Dad spoke to me today about furthering my studies. Sometimes i wonder if i am thinking a little too much, but i am worried for this family. 22 going on to 23, i should stop thinking about me, myself and i, but i have to start thinking about how i am going to take on the responsibility of supporting this family not only financially, but emotionally.
Daddy has come a long way thus far to provide us with everything that we have, and i think it is really time for him to take a break. Well, it’s true that his health has been going downhill (much due to the junk food he eats), we can’t deny that some part of it is due to the stress that he is facing at work. I really think he had enough.Wanting to do something for the family, i have it all planned, to go out to work once i have graduated (this is the reason why i want to graduate fast, for those of you who are wondering). I want daddy to be able to retire as soon as possible and leave this heavy responsibility to me.
However, sadly, daddy does not agree with me. Daddy wants me to further my studies in early childhood and to do something that i really like. But he does not like the idea of me working in a childcare. What he really wants me to do is to be able to be in the management level overseeing a childcare. Our differences in views caused our discussion to come to an end, just like before. As much as i want to do something that daddy wants me to do, daddy thinks otherwise. He wants me to pursue something that i like, yet he is not in favour of me doing something that draws a low pay.
What am i to do from here? The pressure is up, the stress is high. I am really not in the best of moods tonight. Maybe i have really taken up too much commitment, so much that i don’t know how to handle it anymore.
Please give me the strength and energy to see through all these, at least till August. Till then, i shall be a stronger girl, and i will go out and fight the big battle on my own (hopefully).
