it’s been a long time since i last held up this book. happened to chance by it when i walked pass my usual box of books. suddenly had the urge to take it out once again, and i found so many love notes in it… memories of those days were still so vivid. how i wish i can just erase them all from my harddisk. but nonetheless, i must admit that i have grown a lot during that period of time.

thankful for my rapport, for he happened to tell me that it would be the last service that chc is holding in expo hall 8. it’s sad to know that the church is now moving on to suntec, for expo was the place which i had the most memories of chc. but i guess in life, we have to move on… managed to catch service today, and i can tell that everyone is very excited about the move. i guess it is a good thing for the church. i am being objective here, not wanting to touch on the financial or ethical issues. but i am glad that the thirst and desire for God is still as strong. it is just wonderful… i just hope this move is for the better

a simple desire, can sometimes be very difficult to fulfil

all I need now is a BIG BIG HUG. not a virtual one, but one that is real, filled with sincerity and love…. that’s all I need

Been too busy with too many things recently that i have forgotten a lot of things in my life. Important things that i have forgone because of commitments, a lot of things i have forgone because of the decline in my immunity. This is not getting me anywhere.

But nonetheless, exams is around the corner. Jasmine, you have got to be brave, you have got to be strong. Even if the sky falls down on you, you have to hold it up. You can do it girl!

Jiayou jiayou!

Daddy has come a long way thus far to provide us with everything that we have, and i think it is really time for him to take a break. Well, it’s true that his health has been going downhill (much due to the junk food he eats), we can’t deny that some part of it is due to the stress that he is facing at work. I really think he had enough.Wanting to do something for the family, i have it all planned, to go out to work once i have graduated (this is the reason why i want to graduate fast, for those of you who are wondering). I want daddy to be able to retire as soon as possible and leave this heavy responsibility to me.

However, sadly, daddy does not agree with me. Daddy wants me to further my studies in early childhood and to do something that i really like. But he does not like the idea of me working in a childcare. What he really wants me to do is to be able to be in the management level overseeing a childcare. Our differences in views caused our discussion to come to an end, just like before. As much as i want to do something that daddy wants me to do, daddy thinks otherwise. He wants me to pursue something that i like, yet he is not in favour of me doing something that draws a low pay.

What am i to do from here? The pressure is up, the stress is high. I am really not in the best of moods tonight. Maybe i have really taken up too much commitment, so much that i don’t know how to handle it anymore.

Please give me the strength and energy to see through all these, at least till August. Till then, i shall be a stronger girl, and i will go out and fight the big battle on my own (hopefully).

However, it is often during times like this that some very important people in my life appear. They just pop out of nowhere and they seem to know exactly what I am thinking, how I am feeling and what I want to do next. It is times like this that suddenly I feel lifted up once again. I am not alone. I am not fighting this battle on my own.

Thank you those who have been there, and those who will be there. It is no longer me myself and I. It is now about you, me and the world

I DO NOT walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don’t know where it goes
But it’s home to me and I DO NOT walk alone

My shadow’s NOT the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart’s NOT the only thing that’s beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will NOT find me
‘Til then I DO NOT walk alone

Wanted to seek comfort and advice so much, but I wanted to protect you even more.

Wanted to ask and clarify so much, but I fear that I might lack the courage to face the truth.

Wanted to do so many things, but the heart tonight feels a little too weak.

Where has the motivation gone? Where has the desire to run towards you gone to?

I seem to have lost a part of me recently. Not sure what is the cause of it, but somehow I feel a little too lost now. I don’t know who I am, what I am, and where am I going from here on.

All I pray tonight, and please pray for the best for the man of my life, that everything will go on well this Thursday. Friends say he will be fine, but I still fear. Pray for me. Pray for him. That’s all I ask for now.

You may not give me a peace of mind, but i choose to trust you; i believe in you.

This song sings my heart to you. You can choose to have doubts, but ultimately…. choose to place your trust with me.. We’ll build eternity together..

You are such a crap! Gosh!

I AM PISSED >:0